When I said "Good Bye" to Ella today, her first day of Kindergarten, I was surprised at my sadness. I wasn't expecting the tears and emotions. I was more emotional today than when I dropped her off at daycare at 8 weeks old. Actually I was pretty emotional then, but it was different. I was a little bit taken aback by today's emotions because Ella has been in "school" since she was an infant. Why is the first day of Kindergarten different?
It seemed bittersweet. I'm so proud of Ella and how much she knows and grows, but I can see how quickly she's growing up. She's definitely not a baby anymore. She's not even a preschooler. She shared her fears with me yesterday. She was scared that she wouldn't have any friends and that no one would play with her. She cried a little bit. But today, she was so brave as she walked up the stairs and waited outside of the classroom with all of her classmates. I knew she was scared, but she did it anyway. I couldn't be with her up there, I just had to let her go. And that's what today was, letting a little bit of Ella go. Releasing her into a new world with all new experiences. Watching as she waved to me and thinking, "there goes my baby."
Showing off the Froggy Backpack
Giving me a goodbye curtsy before we leave.
Oh my goodness! Kindergarten! Also now that I'm back from vacation I have to ask you about something. I'll email you or call you soon. I'm still just trying to get stuff sorted.
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